I never thought I would forget who I was.
It’s a strange and unsettling feeling, almost as if I woke up from a bad dream. The people I love and who cared for the "old" me don’t understand that I no longer know who I used to be.
When I look in the mirror, I don’t recognize the person staring back. It’s as if the reflection is of a stranger, someone I’ve never met before.
Instead of trying to piece together the fragments of my past self, I’ve decided to focus on building the person I want to be. It’s a conscious choice to let go of the old and embrace the new, to create a version of myself that aligns with my current values, dreams, and aspirations.
The journey of self-discovery is not linear.
There are days filled with clarity and purpose, and others clouded with doubt and confusion. But each step, no matter how small, is a step towards becoming the person I aspire to be. It’s about setting new goals, forming new habits, and surrounding myself with people who support and uplift me.
One of the most significant changes I’ve made is to prioritize my mental and emotional well-being. I’ve learned to listen to my inner voice, to understand my needs and desires, and to give myself the grace to grow and evolve. This means letting go of my past self, forgiving myself, and embracing the new me.
Building the person I want to be also involves exploring new interests and passions. It’s about stepping out of my comfort zone and trying things. Whether it’s picking up a new hobby, traveling to new places, or simply spending time in nature, these experiences are shaping the new me.
I’ve also realized the importance of authentic connections. Surrounding myself with people who genuinely care about my well-being and who encourage my growth has been instrumental in this journey.
These connections provide a sense of belonging and support, reminding me that I am not alone in this process.
As I continue to build the person I want to be, I am filled with a sense of hope and excitement for the future. It’s a journey of self-discovery, growth, and transformation. And while I may not recognize the person I used to be, I am proud of the person I am becoming.

Throughout this journey, my husband, Adam, has been my rock.
He has stood by me through thick and thin, offering unwavering support and love. His presence has been a constant source of strength, even when I felt lost and disconnected from my former self.
However, I must admit that I struggle with survivor's guilt. Adam married me with a set of dreams and goals we formed together, and now I feel like I have tarnished his dream. It’s as if he married an imposter, someone who no longer exists. This guilt weighs heavily on my heart, and I often wonder if I have let him down.
Adam’s patience and understanding have been nothing short of remarkable. He reassures me that our love is not contingent on who I used to be but rather on who I am now and who I am becoming. His belief in me has been a guiding light, helping me navigate the complexities of self-discovery.
Despite my feelings of guilt, I am learning to accept that change is a natural part of life. People evolve, and relationships must adapt to these changes. Adam and I are building new dreams and goals together, ones that reflect our current realities and aspirations. It’s a process of rediscovery for both of us, and it has brought us closer in ways I never imagined.
I am incredibly grateful for Adam’s unwavering support. His love has been a beacon of hope, reminding me that I am not alone in this journey. Together, we are forging a new path, one that honors our past while embracing the possibilities of the future.
It’s not about being perfect or living up to an idealized version of ourselves.
It’s about being authentic, embracing change, and supporting each other through life’s ups and downs.
Remember, You Are Not Alone.

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